"I ain't gotta lie to you to make it sound fly to you...."

" I ain't gotta lie to you to make it sound fly to you..."

This diary is just my thought, my struggle, my life, and my love. I title every journel entry with a lyric from a song because i think of life in song (so its only fitting). In between living and loving... I am writing for me. Peace.

"... I'll keep my feet on the ground and bring the sky to you."

Saturday, September 25, 2010

I can't help there's nothing I want more... (Brandi)

I ran across a old picture of you the other day, and i am reminded again of how things used to be. how beautiful you are. And if I didn't already know... i am crazy. Crazy on so many levels for so many reasons. I am like an alcoholic and you are alcohol. I've been through AA. I have accepted that I can never have another drink even have gone several years without one- moved on in so many ways. When I ran across that beautiful sexy picture of you, it was like I was holding a bottle in my hand- admiring the look and the taste but knowing i can never drink. And not by my own will but by yours and so I have to be strong. Its been 5 years. I realize that this state... is me. you are forever who my mind will drift to. I am pathetic and it actually disgusts me. but this is me...

take me as i am.
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  1. QSeptember 29, 2010 at 12:43 PM

    It's amazing how a photo, a scent, a song..can take us back to the places or people we thought we overcame. I enjoyed reading this piece.

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