Well. I have been covering the midnight shift this week. I have to say that I don't miss this one bit. Its tough to sleep with a girl and kids running around in the evening. Physically I am exhausted all the time. Bottom line is its un-natural. One more night.
I was listening to a John Mayer song, one I've heard a million times "Daughters". Also, my stylist and I had a conversation about parents. I really has me thinking about the type of parent I am. How I am shaping the minds and lives of some person. I thought about how I am critical and sometimes cold. I thought about many of my short comings actually. I thought how these "tiny humans" deserve so much better than what I give them at times. In the times of anger or exhaustion or frustration... how in those times they deserve to see the best me. In the times when it is hardest for me to be. And I get it now, not that I didn't before, but it was a semi-epiphany. How I deal with situations show them how to deal with life. And I don't want them to be angry people, mad-at-the-world type people. I want them to believe that they can overcome anything and have the power to change their circumstances. I want to be happy people who love the life they live, no matter the circumstance. I want them to be beautiful.
Maya Angelou always says, when you know better you do better.... I know now, and I want to do better because..
...Daughters will love like you do.
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