Work- I had an interview today for a promotion at work. The whole time I was thinking, I am not ready for this position. I keep thinking there are others that are better then me. and perhaps that can across in the interview... but i am not sure why i doubt myself. i wish i could see in myself what other's see. I fell like i need to do something. something big. i have an idea.... i just gotta make it happen.
Home- I worked til 8 something so I didn't have to come home and deal with this. Deal with the loneliness of sharing the same home as the one you love but not able to talk to.... I stayed because all i wanted to be able to do was fall asleep and wake up early only to return. I fear this is what I will do when we are done. I fear that I will dive in. and drown in my work. because the alternative is well... deal with the fact that I am... alone.
Love- Guide me so that I can do what is meant for my life. I am emotionless. I can not feel anything. I need some guidance. I need to feel. Pain.
Nothing more to say... just enjoy yourself.
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