"I ain't gotta lie to you to make it sound fly to you...."

" I ain't gotta lie to you to make it sound fly to you..."

This diary is just my thought, my struggle, my life, and my love. I title every journel entry with a lyric from a song because i think of life in song (so its only fitting). In between living and loving... I am writing for me. Peace.

"... I'll keep my feet on the ground and bring the sky to you."

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

I'm emotional and I can't let go.... (Carl Thomas)

my mother was the daughter
of an unknown father
who didn't even bother
and it makes me wanna holla
how my daddy was the maker
of a crazy rump shaker
don't know why he didn't take the
time
to unwind
her twisted mind
or define
what should be left as "mine"


I thought this rhyme as a drove home today. not sure why this came to mind but it did. Today was a decent day. Separation is good. Time alone is needed. But inside I am so confused. Is a month enough time to decided our fate? Its seems too short after 4 years of love and making love. I have no feeling. I am not sure if this is self preservation or if i just can't fell anything right now- as if I am incapable of caring. When will this feeling cease to be? I need to feel something anything. I need these feelings to guide me. Show me the way. How I long to be....

EMOTIONAL.

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